Tuesday, February 17, 2009

Setting expectations low

When I first moved to Texas, there was a guy in my branch who caught me saying some funny things. For months after, every time he saw me, he would say, "You're so funny! Say something funny." I would sit there trying to think of something to say, while also thinking, "I can't do it on command..." After several months of me saying nothing clever in his presence, he seemed to give up on my sharp wit, for which I was relieved.

I thought nothing more of that episode until a few days ago when I met the new sister missionaries that were transferred into our branch. They wanted to meet with me, since I am the RS pres, so I could tell them about people in the branch who may need their help. They asked me about myself, and everything I said made the greenie sister laugh really hard. I was on a roll! But I couldn't help thinking about that guy... Now every time I see her I will be trying to think of something witty to say, and will end up silent and dull. Oh well. I can always hope I'm wittier than I was then.

Spiritual Enlightenment~

This will be a short one today, because I really only have one thing to say. The other day, as I was driving home from my brother's house, where I spend as much time as possible, I was pretty troubled about some things and thinking hard on solutions. One of my thoughts was something I have been told before: humility is strength. If we have true humility, we know that without God, we are nothing. More importantly, we know that with Him, we can do anything. There is great power in acknowledging His hand in all things. (This may be a bit of a ramble, so sorry if it doesn't make sense)

This may not be doctrinal, but another part of my epiphany was that humility involves understanding Heavenly Father's view of us. Once we know how we are loved, we can share that love with other people. There is no weakness, inadequacy, or fear; only great power in the knowledge that we are worth loving. Once we know this, and give up our own pride in the process, we can stop looking so much towards ourselves and look outward.

Monday, February 09, 2009

Foot in Mouth Disease

Lately it seems that I always say the wrong thing. Take yesterday for example, I started off the morning by saying awkward things to my roommates. Then I asked a friend a personal question in front of a lot of people. Then I went to lunch, where I couldn't even seem to form a complete sentence. Then, I betrayed a confidence, forgot to bring things I had promised people, and once again, couldn't form a complete sentence.

At church, I feel obligated to talk to people; it's my job to help people feel welcome and loved. I'm afraid that I just go around offending them. So...I guess I am saying that I think maybe I should not be allowed to talk to people any more. Maybe that way they won't get offended and leave the church.

That sounds pitiful, and it's not entirely true that I don't think I should talk to people at all, it's just that I need to learn to think before I speak. Thinking in general sometimes seems a bit beyond my grasp. Any suggestions on how to go about this?

Thursday, November 20, 2008

Bottom 10

This is a list of things I do not enjoy and/or actively dislike:

10. Maruchan Instant Lunch. Maybe this is because I'm eating it right now.

9. Winter wind. It's cold!

8. People who hurt/abandon animals. I know, it's cheesy, but it really gets me cheesed to see something innocent get hurt.

7. Mealy tomatoes. I'm not the biggest fan of tomatoes to begin with, though I think they accent the flavors of other foods quite nicely. But biting into a burger that's got an old mealy tomato in it is gross.

6. Chocolate desserts. What is with this country's fixation on everything chocolate? I don't really like it, but I am bombarded with it wherever I go. I dislike the fact that females are expected to love chocolate. I also dislike chocolate desserts with dangerous names.

5. Crowded bathrooms. I guess I just prefer to do my business alone. The bathroom at our lab has 4 stalls. If there are three people in the room, that means that the stalls are 75% full. This is a problem. I prefer places that are 25% full or less. This, to me is the optimum capacity of any given restroom.

4. Windows without screens. I like to open the window. I don't like bugs to come in my house. You do the math.

3. Inflexible people. Have you ever had someone refuse point blank to try something? (this is aside from doing that for religious reasons, which I have done several times.....) I like to try new things. I like to share the things I like. I had a friend refuse to listen to Wait Wait Don't Tell Me, without ever having heard it. The reason: she doesn't like talk radio.

2. Texans and 4-way stops. They just don't seem to grasp how they work, which results in everyone waiting for someone to go, and then everyone trying to go at once.

1. Repetitive whining. I remember that Jeffery R. Holland once talked in conference about how Nephi probably preferred being beaten by his brothers to listening to them complain. I have totally experienced this. When people complain constantly about the same things, I feel like shooting myself. It reminds me of Vogon poetry.

Thursday, October 23, 2008

Another one

5 things Quirky? Is that how it goes? Oh, 5 things unknown, unless you're Glarcy. Interestingly enough, Glarcy is the one who tagged me, and Glarcy is the one who knows all of this already.

1- I'm almost obsessive about research, as long as I'm not required to do it. There's a reason my sister is always asking me what camera, computer, etc. to get. I like to do consumer research. If you want to find the best_____ talk to me. I will research it for you. I have always felt that this comic describes me quite well.

2- I have a hard time killing bugs. I'm not afraid of them (with the exception of very large spiders), I just don't like killing them. I may take that sanctity of life thing too far. The only exception to this is mosquitoes. It still bothers me to kill them, just not as much.

3- I don't wash my hair. (Ok-let me qualify this statement. I don't use shampoo more than once a month, and usually less than that. It just dries out my hair too much. I use conditioner on my hair every time I shower. I don't stink. My hair's not greasy.)

4- I drink more liquid than anyone else I know. I have done this ever since I was a kid. As you may have guessed, this has interesting side effects.

5- I am lucky in weird ways. I really can't elaborate because I'm afraid it will end. All I will say is that my brother ended up getting a job in the same obscure city where I am going to school. No more lonelies for me! Things like this happen to me all the time.